Work hard & have fun!

I haven’t posted anything in 3 months now & haven’t really posted anything regularly since November ‘07.

Mostly, I think it’s because of being pre-occupied & in gloom over how I’m not having a good year at work (at least in my mind!).

I was talking to K about this the other day – about how things get into a virtuous cycle when you put in the effort (you work hard, you learn more, people come to you as the expert, your pride in work grows, your role increases, you work hard and so on…).

However, since Noyonika was born, spending time with her & Kanchuki was more important to me than working hard, and that virtuous cycle didn’t get set up at work. Now, dont imagine for a moment that I would have rather worked hard than spend time with family. Absolutely NOT – every moment with Noyonika & K is precious to me.

However, things sometime dont play out the way you’d like them to. What I found was that by not working hard, while I had more time to spend with Noyonika & K, I wasnt able to spend the time with a carefree mind – unresolved & unattended items from work stayed on my mind, and I just wasnt myself. I was just cranky & sullen! It turned out that the days I worked hard, I spent less time with Noyonika & K, but I was happy & was fun to be around… what a paradox!

Anyway, for now I’ve decided to going back to working really hard… it may mean less time at home, but at least I wont be a wet blanket when I’m around the people I love the most! And you never know – I may just end up blogging more as well (who knows what 2nd order effects working hard may have?!)